你左 . 我右
the impossible
The same person, same place
Though not the best, but I can't get another better than you ♥
Showing posts with label 心情篇. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 心情篇. Show all posts
independent, not
4 years ago, while I was just like other kids, starting fresh at college, eager to rush back to "Home Sweet Home" almost every weekend. Dad used to say, "don't always come back, must learn to be independent!" --- that was pretty sad.
Now, 4 years later. The college girl has already grown up, graduated as a degree holder, with a job now. Supposed to drive there, and settle down myself. But this time, dad said, "I shall drive you down." --- what happen to me being independent?
Just being sentimental.
insomnia
This must be my worst sleepless-night ever. wtf! I've been tossing and turning for 4 hours before finally dozed off at around 6am. All sort of things jammed in the mind at the same time, this and that, desperate and excited, frustrated and worry. wtf. And i'm already up at 10am. Guess i've too much in mind, plans after plans, but don't have the chance to execute it yet. Getting really restless these days, never felt this desperate before. Yea, i'm VERY desperate to get myself a job so that i can execute my plans. Now that i'm typing this out, my mind still have all sort of things floating direction-less. I'm babbling now i know. FML
会有的一天
如果有一天我不再关心你，
如果有一天我不再在乎你，
如果有一天我不再烦着你，
如果有一天我真的累了，
你要想想我为什么会累。
那时，请你不要责怪我
到时，请你谅解我。
背着你走很久，
要放下一下下
因为我一点都不强，我没那个能力。
我只是个小女人。
如果有那一天，记得给我充电。
初恋 . 次恋
每个人的初恋，大都十分纯情。
跨过了初恋，爱情就出了很多姿态。
有人变得风流，见一个爱一个；
有人冷漠，再不会拿出真心爱第二个人。
不是每个人都适合与你白头到老。
有的人，是拿来成长的；
有的人，是拿来一起生活的；
有的人，是拿来一阵子怀念的；
有的人，是要一辈子珍惜的。
（摘自微博）
C.O.L
there's nothing wrong with crying out loud, isn't it?
cry out loud
wipe off the mucus
breath hard
toss everything away with the tissues
released
哭过就好了啦~
that's for this time...
COL again next time =]
u definitely have no idea how much suffer am i.
this is how it's like
♥♥♥
Some days i want to go back to the day when love found us, when you took my hand. Some days i wanna take a break from everything and make time to fall in love with you again, and you fall in love with me again... ♥
就这样
喜欢在你打机时偷瞄你
就是喜欢看你皱着眉头，很serious的样子
等你问一声 zomok?
然后对你傻笑
继续毫无目的地 scroll 上 scroll 下非死不可。
其实心里挣扎着
好想任性一次说
我不要回。
这一次的拜拜，就是一两个月了。
你要给我乖乖。
打着打着
心酸酸地
喉咙被呛到下下
听见了你再次的 zomok?
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该死的，是谁发明了距离这鬼东西?
distance
Distance
no matter how short it is,
it's still called distance.
it's an obstacle
and it shouldn't be an excuse
i supposed?
突然累了
你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
我被遗忘在
你遗忘的角落 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
the unexpressed
How do you tell a person how u actually feel, without them fooling around trying to change the topic?
How are you gonna tell the person, that you really want him in life, and couldn't let go just like that?
How do you say "i'm sorry" for not able to go with the plan as agreed?
How do you convince someone that the decision to settle anywhere is not of their concern?
How do you make the person understand the fear and sorrow in you?
How do you tell them to remove something that annoys and hurts you long ago?
How do you tell someone it kills you for the waiting?
How do you tell someone that you tried so hard to hold back the tears every time they try to be nice to you just for the sake of you, not from the heart and it hurts badly?
How do tell the person that it's sooooo hard to keep a smile that last 24hours in a row, knowing that you're only random-access-memory of their heart?
How do you make them understand all above?
It's rather hard to express verbally most of the time, the words just don't seem to came out right from the mouth. Especially when it comes to the feelings part, you kinda have this dust ball stuck right inside your throat and you go bla bra bra.......... Things get worse when people, who you're trying to talk to, are not into what you're gonna say. Often people forgot about the roots to these matters ---- the feeling & the willingness. The feeling of care, and the willingness to care.
For now, i think i've lost both the feeling, not my feelings that is, and the willingness to care. No matter how hard i've tried, it just won't find its way back. Reality is there Just don't feel like being an ostrich anymore, the more aware i am, the further i dug i head into the ground. Fear for facing the naked truth brings more hurt than i ever expected. I'm near to suffocation thou. It seems like getting to nowhere. Obviously, i'm fooling nobody but ownself, can't even tell the black or white, the truth or opposite.
No offence, this is where i express my unexpressed.
Reminder: Keep hanging on!!
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Feather in The Wind
I'm a feather in the wind
I'm up and then I'm down again
and though the places i have been
to heavens gate and 'round the bend
Things are never what
They appear to be
'Cause everybody's trying to grab a hold of me
So catch me if you can
Set me free again
Like a feather in the wind
I'm a reflection in the glass
'Cause i cant keep from looking back
And though the pages that i lack
Are stuck inside a broken past
Things are never what
They appear to be
So i'll dig a little deeper
Than what the eye can see
And if anybody asks
Making friends at last
With my reflection in the glass
I'm softer than a bride in white
But i'm tough enough to fight my own fight
Sometimes higher than a quivering kite
More lowly than a beggars plight
Like a fire in the night
I'm burnin up with all my might
Don't wanna flicker out of sight
Fade into the morning light
Things are never what
They appear to be
Cause only time will tell when
I'm ashes at your feet
So when i'm burnin bright
Let me be your light
Like a fire in the night
Things are never what
They appear to be
So many different pieces
Make up the whole of me
So hold me in your hands
Take me as i am
'Cause i'm a feather
I'm a reflection
I'm a fire in your direction
I'm unruly
I'm undone
So just love me as i come
I'm up and then I'm down again
and though the places i have been
to heavens gate and 'round the bend
Things are never what
They appear to be
'Cause everybody's trying to grab a hold of me
So catch me if you can
Set me free again
Like a feather in the wind
I'm a reflection in the glass
'Cause i cant keep from looking back
And though the pages that i lack
Are stuck inside a broken past
Things are never what
They appear to be
So i'll dig a little deeper
Than what the eye can see
And if anybody asks
Making friends at last
With my reflection in the glass
I'm softer than a bride in white
But i'm tough enough to fight my own fight
Sometimes higher than a quivering kite
More lowly than a beggars plight
Like a fire in the night
I'm burnin up with all my might
Don't wanna flicker out of sight
Fade into the morning light
Things are never what
They appear to be
Cause only time will tell when
I'm ashes at your feet
So when i'm burnin bright
Let me be your light
Like a fire in the night
Things are never what
They appear to be
So many different pieces
Make up the whole of me
So hold me in your hands
Take me as i am
'Cause i'm a feather
I'm a reflection
I'm a fire in your direction
I'm unruly
I'm undone
So just love me as i come
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
And yea, we go up & down in life
As things were never the way we wanted it to be.
Just follow the flow, and hope that one day
the universe may reward you.
