最近

最近搬了新房，除了它是单人房以外

其他的极度后悔

后悔这里没有隐私

后悔这里没有自由

后悔这里很乱，是超乱的那种

后悔这里要跟陌生人共用厕所，像足典型宿舍，我很不喜欢

最重要的，我很寂寞

最近很忙，忙那个好像没有终点的考试

这段时间的生活都会日夜颠倒，就像现在

压力起来会失眠，很累却无法入睡的感觉试过吗？

明明很累很累，躺下去担心多多，拿起书又读不进那种

两个字-- 无奈

最近很善忘，更是记不起读过的东西

很压力，特别是在考场的时候

脑袋一片空白的时候，写不出半行答案出来的时候

是种无法形容的恐惧

最近很暴躁，很厉害发脾气

厉害到自己都怕

稍微不合胃口就反感，不顺意就发蓝杂

身边很多遭殃

最近常头痛，是长时间的那种

可能眼力用过多，影响神经线

最近很情绪化

莫名的大哭，莫名的大笑

长期来很怕会精神分裂

最近很烦

该死的心，软在不因该的情况

让人踩到头上，再踩多几脚

不能排除自己也有错的事实

至少我不搞小动作博同情

最近真的累透

黑圆圈深到回家会吓到妈咪

自己照镜子都要照多两下确认下

该死的考试

我讨厌你

i'm really nothing

what's makes you think communication is essential anyway? u used to tell me we should really communicate to each other, spilling out whatever is in the heart just to let the other to know what is actually going on. so, what happens now? u tell me...

i never have the intention to move out. yea, maybe the thinking of staying alone does occur. but it was never to be realized. even how tempting is the offer, i thought of u first, believe it or not. struggling between this n that, u told me u had already made the decision. what the heck was that? i was told a single room, from u. how was i to know? u even get the whole world to keep it from me? and the so-called best friend? u took everything! u took it piece by piece from me. all the guilt, the emo and attempts to make it up, means nothing to u.

40个经典短语，让你领悟更多……

1、一个人炫耀什么，说明内心缺少什么。

2、一个人越在意的地方，就是最令他自卑的地方。

3、人都有以第一印象定好坏的习惯，认为一个人好时，就会爱屋及乌，认为一个人不好时，就会全盘否认。

4、人越是得意的事情，越爱隐藏，越是痛苦的事情越爱小题大作。

5、这个世界既不是有钱人的世界，也不是有权人的世界，它是有心人的世界。

6、婚姻的杀手有时不是外遇，而是时间。

7、当你再也没有什么可以失去的时候，就是你开始得到的时候。

8、学习要加，骄傲要减，机会要乘，懒惰要除。

9、童年的无知可爱，少年的无知可笑；青年的无知可怜；中年的无知可叹，老年的无知可悲。

10、人允许一个陌生人的发迹，却不能容忍一个身边人的晋升。因为同一层次的人之间存在着对比、利益的冲突，而与 陌生人不存在这方面的问题。

11、一个女人喜欢一个男人时，她希望听到谎言；当一个女人厌恶一个男人时，她希望听到真理。

12、现代的婚姻是情感的产物，更是竞争的结晶。

13、敌人变成战友多半是为了生存，战友变成敌人多半是为了金钱。

14、世界上1%的人是吃小亏而占大便宜，而99%的人是占小便宜吃大亏。大多数成功人士都源于那1%。

15、一个人幸运的前提，其实是他有能力改变自己。

16、人的成长要接受四个方面的教育：父母、老师、书籍，社会。有趣的是，后者似乎总是与前面三种背道而驰。

17、经营自己的长处，能使你人生增值；经营你的短处，能使你人生贬值。

18、生命犹如一片绿叶，随着时间的流逝，慢慢变的枯黄，但他的叶脉还是那么清晰可见。

19、把事情变复杂很简单，把事情变简单很复杂。

20、如果是棵小草，即使在最好的企业里，你也长不成大树。果真如此，不如历经风雨，把自己培养成名贵花卉。

21、“危机”两个字，一个意味着危险，另外一个意味着机会，不要放弃任何一次努力。

22、怕爹是孝顺，怕老婆是爱情。

23、没有不合格的学生，只有不合格的家长。

24、地球是运动的，一个人不会永远处在倒霉的位置。

25、有一种人只做两件事：你成功了，他妒嫉你；你失败了，他笑话你。

26、笨男人+笨女人=结婚； 笨男人+聪明女人=离婚； 聪明男人+笨女人=婚外情； 聪明男人+聪明女人=浪漫爱情。

27、人有两只眼睛，全是平行的，所以应当平等看人；人的两只耳朵是分在两边的，所以不可偏听一面之词；人虽只有 一颗心，然而有左右两个心房，所以做事不但要为自己想，也要为别人想。2

8、“总”要为爱人着想，“经”得起爱人唠叨，“理”应对爱人谦让，男人应当“总经理”。

29、失言就是一不小心说了实话。

30、真诚并不意味着要指责别人的缺点，但意味着一定不恭维别人的缺点。

31、人的本性就是贪婪，但没有贪婪社会就不会进步。

32、恋爱是想一个人的心，婚姻是拴一个人的心，爱情是吞一个人的心。

33、最好的进攻就是进攻自己。

34、人生的意义不在于拿一手好牌，而在于打好一手坏牌。

35、竞争，其实就是一种友谊，在对手的帮助下提高你的聪明度，害怕竞争的人已经输给了对手。

36、钱可以帮穷人解决问题，却帮富人制造问题。

37、世界上只有想不通的人，没有走不通的路。

38、真正的财富是一种思维方式，而不是一个月收入数字。

39、一个人想平庸，阻拦者很少；一个人想出众，阻拦者很多。不少平庸者与周围人关系融洽，不少出众者与周围人关 系紧张。

40、三流的化妆是脸上的化妆；二流的化妆是精神的化妆；一流的化妆是生命的化妆。

很有意思~ 看完记得转到自己涂污墙里面，经常看反复领悟吧……

( Quoted from anonymous's notes in facebook )

speechless

lotsa things i wanna express. but none of it come out. just dunno how to let out my frustration, my anger, my heartache. now that i know there are lotsa backstabbing going on. and that it's true that the closest to you is the most dangerous one. would NEVER trust anyone from now on...

i am damn tired and sleepy now but just couldn't bring myself to sleep beside her. it really sucks. god knows how glad i am to make the decision.

累

我真的很累...

考试累

上课累

面对种种人与事很累

面对你很累

你不了解。

我的耐性很不好，不要继续考我了。

我也有累的时候...

我累到快崩溃...

对我的冷淡，忍也忍了，迁就也迁就了，脾气也不发了。

就算对你的冷漠多失望，多难过，多不爽，

都 “忍” ...

硬着吞不下，一整晚自己气得睡不着。

知道你会主动发短讯那些女的，但我选择相信你，相信你说的没有。

天天闭只眼开只眼，说服自己你还是一样爱我，虽然常常会感觉不到。

我最讨厌你的烂借口，不信息我的烂借口。

电话删除按键坏了，很难打信息。

可是却让我发现你和那个她，那个她，还有那个她，

可以有几十封的对话，一封满的哦。怎么解？

不是我想提，是忘不掉，那根刺，拔不掉。

而一天到晚得不到你的消息，我会疯掉。心情烂透。

你的一通电话，就算几秒钟，真的可以让我开心。

就算一封信息，也让我自爽一下下。

可是你最近给的开心，自爽，存来存去都看不到满的？

关心我的心去了哪里？

我们到底怎么了？

对不起，我的错。

但不要让我到时连累都感觉不到...

just a lil

Another exhausted day. Both physically and mentally. Have this thought that when someone is in a very tiring mode, they tend to think more, getting more emotional than usual. Like now? I dunno how long I can bear with these kinda life. This is only everyday classes, not including the assignments and mid terms. I always thought that 24 hours per day were never enough for me, especially during long semesters. Now, currently, is no exception. Waking up and leaving for classes early in the morning, some times a short rest back home whenever the break between classes are slightly a lil longer than usual or otherwise staying back , then coming back just in time for dinner. And some times, we could really skipped dinner just because everyone are too tire to move or do anything. Just wanted a lil rest.

So, basically 24 hours a day minus 6 hours of sleep, minus the 10 hours maximum for classes, minus another 4 hours for showers and meals, I only left with FOUR hours for MYSELF. What can I do within this peanut hour?? Not more than 2 episodes of drama? A few clicks and busybody-ing in facebook? Not to mention the time wasted to refresh the page a gazillion times cause the line here really SUCKS! Not quite sure is it sucks by nature or there are a cause for it. Get what I mean right.

What I want besides a whole bunch of headaches was just a lil comfy time for myself. I have tonnes of stuff which I planned to do yet never had the chance to even get it started. Now I am really worried about the assignments. No one has ever mention it or having any intention to maybe, discuss over it? The last thing I wanted for the time being is being nagged or complained about anything. Well, I am just a human being. I don't know what is everyone thinking. If I do, why would I frust myself like hell? Why am I stressed over a slightest problem occurring in the wrong timing?

Sometimes, well, most of time, I just felt leaving all behind. Why all the fuss? Why all the tensions? Why all the anger losing at someone? Why the moody and emo session? Just hate this kinda life. I deserve to go for what I want. I am afraid that one day, those fire, the ever longing desire, the dreams of all times would fade away as time passed. Is this the so called 'Opportunity Cost' ? Fore go the dream and live in pressure and undesirable environment. Life isn't fun, not even close to enjoyable. Even buddies ain't gonna be by your side when you needed them. So, what for? To depend on others, better rely on your own fat ass. That's what a friend said. Kinda agree to it. So, tend to keep most of the things to myself now. I call this self-protect. He said I should not be too 'kind', as in ke po to be exact. Should learn to be more selfish for own sake, think of own interest before others. Not sure how true or how relevant it is, but worth a try.

2.33am

my usual bed time

but not gonna doze off this so soon tonight

nightzz ppl...