累

我真的很累...

考试累

上课累

面对种种人与事很累

面对你很累

你不了解。

我的耐性很不好，不要继续考我了。

我也有累的时候...

我累到快崩溃...

对我的冷淡，忍也忍了，迁就也迁就了，脾气也不发了。

就算对你的冷漠多失望，多难过，多不爽，

都 “忍” ...

硬着吞不下，一整晚自己气得睡不着。

知道你会主动发短讯那些女的，但我选择相信你，相信你说的没有。

天天闭只眼开只眼，说服自己你还是一样爱我，虽然常常会感觉不到。

我最讨厌你的烂借口，不信息我的烂借口。

电话删除按键坏了，很难打信息。

可是却让我发现你和那个她，那个她，还有那个她，

可以有几十封的对话，一封满的哦。怎么解？

不是我想提，是忘不掉，那根刺，拔不掉。

而一天到晚得不到你的消息，我会疯掉。心情烂透。

你的一通电话，就算几秒钟，真的可以让我开心。

就算一封信息，也让我自爽一下下。

可是你最近给的开心，自爽，存来存去都看不到满的？

关心我的心去了哪里？

我们到底怎么了？

对不起，我的错。

但不要让我到时连累都感觉不到...

没那种$$命

元宵快乐~

昨晚和朋友吃烧烤火锅，一个字 --- 爽！

很荒谬的是自己竟然在衣橱挖出一见特大件的上衣，为的是可以吃很多很多也不怕那团轮胎暴露出来。掩饰嘛... 聪明叻~

肥婆上镜～以后要多买大大件的上衣了... 因为...我贪吃！^^

结果真的饱到...... 到家坐在电脑前面，动都不想动。肥到~~~ 没眼看 @@

后来跟那两条马拉佬和表妹上车兜风，看夜景。还好啦...只不过是穿着睡裙出去咯。

重点就是回来后跟那班屋友开桌赌博。本十块，连本带利息输二十四块，好料叻。原本输掉一个午餐，到最后却输了半餐的寿司王。爸，不好意思你女儿没那种命，破财了。

$$$這東西　沒道理的　有人很搶手　有人沒資格路是人走的 我害怕什麼　大不了　別愛了　它像個天仙　它太美了　我那麼平凡 我開不了口心裡面曉得　追它的結果　幸運的　不是我　我沒那種命呀

它沒道理愛上我　英雄和美人哪　是一國的只怪 愛人太多了　對手太好了　勸自己別傻了 以前甭提了　以後非加油不可 我沒那種命呀　輪也不會輪到我　$$$老是缺貨 我爭什麼　時間　越來越少了　越來越老了我剩下一個夢 它走過來說其實我錯了她愛我（其實你錯了，我太愛你）

注: 大家不要误会。我指的我真的是我，而那个它，指的是 $$$$$$! 

< 24hrs

Going to have 3 mid-term this week and the 1st one would tomorrow.

That's the point here.

I actually forgot bout it!! @@

Not that i forgotten acutally, just mistaken the lecture time.

Thought it will be on wednesday when it is just less than 24hrs away~~

now really struggle to swallow and digest all the 6 chaps!

Can i burn and eat it all up?? can i ?? can i??

soooo stupidddd.... another last minute revision~ sucksss!

not to mention the god damn hot weather!!

how on earth people tolerate and concentrate at the same time huh??

as usual, headsets on, songs on, junkies reachable, study time~

this is gonna be hard... and it might turn into a long long nighttt~~ arghhh!!

audit oh audit~ please love meeee~~~ i love u sooo~~

complaining so much yet got the time to vain~ and even editing! keke ^^

i AM studying... but feel like blogging even more...

p/s left out the bag of Wise chips... its ALL in my tummy now~ =D

chaos ^^

懒到...

天天爱睡
天天钓鱼
天天聊天
天天面子书
天天养鱼
天天发呆
天天吃多多

却没有天天读书
懒到........... 无言。
怎样死？？你讲啦~ 你讲啦~~

你

给你，

让我有点自己的空间好吗？

我真的透不过气。

很累...

...

不要每天定时向我伤口撒盐，好吗...

我没有这样子对你.....

just a lil

Another exhausted day. Both physically and mentally. Have this thought that when someone is in a very tiring mode, they tend to think more, getting more emotional than usual. Like now? I dunno how long I can bear with these kinda life. This is only everyday classes, not including the assignments and mid terms. I always thought that 24 hours per day were never enough for me, especially during long semesters. Now, currently, is no exception. Waking up and leaving for classes early in the morning, some times a short rest back home whenever the break between classes are slightly a lil longer than usual or otherwise staying back , then coming back just in time for dinner. And some times, we could really skipped dinner just because everyone are too tire to move or do anything. Just wanted a lil rest.

So, basically 24 hours a day minus 6 hours of sleep, minus the 10 hours maximum for classes, minus another 4 hours for showers and meals, I only left with FOUR hours for MYSELF. What can I do within this peanut hour?? Not more than 2 episodes of drama? A few clicks and busybody-ing in facebook? Not to mention the time wasted to refresh the page a gazillion times cause the line here really SUCKS! Not quite sure is it sucks by nature or there are a cause for it. Get what I mean right.

What I want besides a whole bunch of headaches was just a lil comfy time for myself. I have tonnes of stuff which I planned to do yet never had the chance to even get it started. Now I am really worried about the assignments. No one has ever mention it or having any intention to maybe, discuss over it? The last thing I wanted for the time being is being nagged or complained about anything. Well, I am just a human being. I don't know what is everyone thinking. If I do, why would I frust myself like hell? Why am I stressed over a slightest problem occurring in the wrong timing?

Sometimes, well, most of time, I just felt leaving all behind. Why all the fuss? Why all the tensions? Why all the anger losing at someone? Why the moody and emo session? Just hate this kinda life. I deserve to go for what I want. I am afraid that one day, those fire, the ever longing desire, the dreams of all times would fade away as time passed. Is this the so called 'Opportunity Cost' ? Fore go the dream and live in pressure and undesirable environment. Life isn't fun, not even close to enjoyable. Even buddies ain't gonna be by your side when you needed them. So, what for? To depend on others, better rely on your own fat ass. That's what a friend said. Kinda agree to it. So, tend to keep most of the things to myself now. I call this self-protect. He said I should not be too 'kind', as in ke po to be exact. Should learn to be more selfish for own sake, think of own interest before others. Not sure how true or how relevant it is, but worth a try.

2.33am

my usual bed time

but not gonna doze off this so soon tonight

nightzz ppl...